Nathan Darcy

I'm going to start off saying this: I don't want the main character of my movie to be unlike-able. He's supposed to be a good natured, good moraled, good headed young man with a few confidence issues. The viewer is supposed to like him. But...

The script makes him sound like an asshole. A constantly whining, sarcastic, egotistical asshole with no morals and a few confidence issues. I don't know how to make him like-able in the script. I kind of hate him in the script. 

So... I'm going to completely redo the script. It's not too far along, anyway, thank the heavens, but still. I feel like this is something I really have to do.

It'll only take a little while anyway. I know I haven't posted any of it but part of the first page but I'll get around to when I rewrite it.

Yup. 

The Godfather of All

Zombies. That's right, I'm talkin' about George Andrew Romero, the godfather of zombies and my personal favorite film director. Quite a large number of my peers don't know who he is, which brings a single tear to my eye. I weep for all the scared whispers children have made in the dark, all of my odes to this sweet old man, all of my horrific dreams of being chased by zombies through the middle school.

George in his younger days. 

I weep for anyone who has gone through the Black Ops dlc and not known who this man is. I weep for anyone who has searched "Dawn of the Dead" on Wikipedia and was given results for the 2004 film instead of the original. 

This man has been my inspiration and favorite director since I first got into the swing of films. He is the camp to my Sam Raimi. The brains to my zombie. 

I just want everyone to take a moment of silence for one of the most inspirational and influential men to have ever graced the business of film. 

Amen. 

Dead Happy (the Script, Not the Blog)

So.
Today I showed a short video to my class, one that I had made with a friend, about clinical depression. Everything went well and my classmates agreed that it was a good video (not to be a narcissist but that's what THEY said, not me) and that got me thinking: I know this is what I want to do for the rest of my life, but I kind of suck ass at this.
I'm not going to lie and say I'm the best.
To be honest, I have no money for nice equipment, nor do I have much of a job in the first place. My movies are amateurish at best. I try as hard as possible to soak up whatever film techniques I can when I watch the talkies, but its a bit discouraging when your videos still have that FEEL to them. The FEEL of an amateur.

I'm trying to replace most of my time worrying about my misfortunes and woes by writing something (remember when I said I wasn't a writer? I lied.) It's a small little thing I call Dead Happy (unrelated to the film of the same name by Nicky Lianos) and it's about a man who finds hope after he's been murdered and becomes a ghost. Also, there's a love story, but that's not the important part.
The important part is that I desperately want this to become a real, tangible film, but I just don't feel ready to do so. I have imagined for years now that I could do something special, make a film of my own, but even after all of these years, I just can't yet.

And the most irritating part is that it's just dangling so closely above my head but I can't quite reach high enough. I have no one to really help me with this, but that doesn't matter. The lack of money doesn't matter. The lack of equipment doesn't matter.

My own unwillingness to comply with my aspirations is what really kills me. I know I just complained about what I don't have, but the thing that I don't have the most is my own drive (or at least not a strong enough one.)

This is part of the reason for this blog, to remind myself that I have to stop being such a lazy-ass and do what I want to do with my life. So from here on out, I'll do this. I'll study to whatever amount, buy to whatever amount, study  more to whatever amount, do whatever the hell it takes to become better at what I do. Why? Because. It's what I do.

And I don't want you, reader and friend, to think that I blame my woes on my lack of money or equipment. I know I'm not a good director yet, but I'll strive and strive until I'm there. Until I'm satisfied. Which is to say, never, but I'll strive until then, and you can count on that.

Thank you for reading this entire post (or at least reading the conclusion because truly, the conclusion is always the best part of anything) and I'm sorry if I was an incoherent mess, but I think this helped me more than anything. So anyway, thank you.

Yup.

Hello Hello

Editing this entire post, I can't say THAT was a very good intro now that I look back to it.
Anyway, this is my blog. I'll talk about movies and whatnot, along with a certain project that I myself am working on (but more on that later.)

For those of you who don't know me, (AKA all of you) I am an aspiring film director. I'm a long-shot from where I'd like to be in terms of style of direction and subject matter, however, I hope that I can learn to hone those skills through the internet(!) and through self realization about what really matters to me. Boy that last sentence was a run on. Good thing I'm not a writer.

For the love of all things holy, I promise I will try not to post anything irrelevant to what this blog is all about (such as: Jade Empire, Firefly, The Tick, etc.) If this happens, please let me know so I can delete it. Thanks.

So that's really all I have to say about that. If you have any questions, concerns, comments, or anything else starting with a "c" or a "q", please feel free to drop me a note. I'm always lurking the internet.

Yup.